Devilish Bondage

2006-12-30T15:23:00.000-08:00

rebel

2006-12-15T07:54:00.000-08:00

JESSE

She is about to turn 2 years old and this will be her second year hearing fireworks during the holidays, I might need to change the rules since last year. Remember this. She is still acting like a rebel, I wish I could tell to all who said she was going to calm down after the first year to go fuck themselves but I can't, I'm a lady, can't you see? and that picture proves it, she is Satan. Look at her eyes, she is totally up to something. Prevention is the key people. I'm thinking chains or drugs or alcohol, a cat babysitter maybe, that might be hard to find, a cat babysitter that works during the holidays. Anyone?

so far

CAT = 1 / ANA = 0

2006-12-04T07:55:00.000-08:00

I wish I had a river I could skate away on ...

I remember being addicted to this song. I totally felt in love with Robert Downey Jr. when he sang it and I think it's a perfect song for Sarah.

This shows how you never really get over it. That's Music, Love, Fear, Snow and Boston.

Obesity

2006-11-21T15:19:00.000-08:00

GLOBAL VOICES ONLINE

OBESITY

My new article is up at VLEL [Voces Latinas en Linea], I mixed a couple of articles that I've found about the huge hug that yesterday thousands of people gave to the Argentinean Congress. I chose to write about this issue because we really need a law that protects us all, no matter what illness we have, and obesity it's probably the base of many diseases that could end our lives so it's really important that the system considers it as a disease.

I know I'm always complaining about the system and I find this one to be a perfect opportunity to fix it just a little bit, so please I ask to everyone who works in the congress to please vote YES on this issue.

The health system must prevent and protect us from the horrible consequences of Obesity. Be good and say yes or I'll get Andrea Politti and all her gang and we will all kick your ass.

I LOVE YOU

2006-11-15T14:41:00.000-08:00

I CANNOT STOP FEELING THE WAY I FEEL

Everyone says that I should not take things so personal, but I can't deal with death. How can I not take things personal when I see sweet friends die.

I know that I shouldn't probably share so many sad story's with you all but I want to document the way I feel today, cuz I fear that I will forget, and I don't want to forget them, so bear with me and try to understand where I come from, and how I can't keep separating my online life from what I see and feel everyday of my life.

Last Monday a young boy died in surgery. He was the coolest, sweetest person I've ever had the pleasure of meeting. He was so young but so mature. He acted like a kid, I couldn't get him out of bed before rounds, he would always say 'would you please come back later?' and then cover his entire body even his head under his blanket and roll to the opposite side of me. I knew where he was coming from, because I would have probably done the same if I were in his position. At the end of my shifts, even when I had changed to my normal cloth he would ask for me to check on him. Always on the last minute. I found it so funny and to be honest I didn't have a problem with accepting his "times".

He was my youngest patient, he was only 36 years old. I connected with him because he was a rebel and a really cool one, but besides that he was so respectful that it was really easy to like him.

He had been waiting since July for this surgery, and I could tell he was getting really tired, but that didn't keep him from being the one who would cheer the other guys up. He even made his mother bring him a TV so he wouldn't have to pay per hour. He made all the connections, brought an antenna and everything, when you entered his room you had to walk over a million cables. He listened to music, read, and wore the coolest soccer t-shirts from around the globe. He was so smart and well educated. You could tell he just needed his life back. He would walk around the hospital and sit to chat with his roommates in the halls, then he would play really cool music.

The last time I saw him I remember walking by him in the hall and we just stared at each other while I walked to the office to get some papers, I left the hospital without saying goodbye, I didn't know he was going to surgery that night, no one knew, it took everyone by surprise that the surgeons decided to do it that night.

The guys told me that they all wished him the best, and that he was really nervous about it.

The next morning I went back and he was still in surgery, we knew something was wrong, and about 10 am in the morning he left us. We all felt

SO EMPTY

As for the room, there's a new patient in his bed. His TV is still there, untouched, no one seems to be able to turn it back on. Some days ago that was the happiest room in the hospital, everyone would get together to see the soccer matches with him, he invited everyone, and always defended his team (Boca) I would tease him that the current championship was bought by his team, and I told him that even though I was a River fan I understood his passion for his team.

I don't seem to be able to enter his room anymore. Today I stared at his door and at his chair in from of the elevator where he used to sit so he could see the sun and I can tell you I miss you already boy. I know I didn't know you much, but I will never forget you, you deserved more time, the world deserved more time with you.

Marcelo

I'll miss your smile the most. I wish I could go back in time and give you the biggest hug. I'm so sorry I walked pass you and didn't say anything.

Rest in Peace sweet friend.

I just want to say that I hope that Boca fucking wins this championship, and I do hope that you are there to see it happen.

I love you . We all love you so much.

FOR YOU M:

2006-11-10T14:20:00.000-08:00

RIP

We lost a patient today.

He suffered an AMI, we did all we could but he died.

Every patient in the unit is sad and scare.

He was only 50 years old. When he first felt something was wrong, he wanted to make a call to his wife, so before we passed him to the coronary emergency unit, he talked to her for 2 minutes and said:

"I'm so tired."

I wish I could tell him how very sorry I am. Your friends already miss you. Not seeing you in the hall talking the guys will be very sad. Rest in peace Luis wherever you are now.

panic

2006-11-08T14:29:00.000-08:00

IF YOU ARE GOING TO PANIC YOU BETTER HAVE A DAMN GOOD REASON FOR DOING SO.

See today I was removing an IV and I couldn't find the needle. Yes that's right, you've read it well. Seriously I had a panic attack right then and there in front of this sweet 80 year old woman with big puppy eyes who just stared at me in silence while I made every surgeon literally run inside the room and help me. All I could think about was that she was going to die, and it'd be all my fault.

5 minutes later a nurse answered my red alert and saw how we were trying to localize the needle using all sort of different techniques and she was like:

''What happened?'' she asked.

''We have a red needle code kind of situation'' a fellow co worker answered just because I was shaking in a corner in a fetal position pronouncing words that didn't make sense at all.

''Pardon me, but haven't you all seen these new plastic lines before?, you are looking for a needle that doesn't exist. ''

''What?'' in unison everyone of the 10 people inside the room yelled.

''There's no needle!''

''really?''

''R E A L L Y.''

''OK Sorry guys! apparently I didn't get that memo, go back to what you were doing, I'll kill the n u r s e don't worry.''

I nervously smiled to the patient who was praying with her eyes closed, she opened them back as soon as she heard the words that meant that she would be ok. She turned her head 180 degrees searching for me and said with a grandmother angry kind of voice:

''you mother fucking punk, you better run for your life cuss I'll get you, and I promise that when I get you, you will surely find your needles. ''

''I'm so sorry, I'm going to score you two more points onto your cardiac risk number, you will probably get to surgery sooner.''

''You do that.''

''Yes ma'am.''

Listening to:

fuck it

2006-10-26T16:16:00.000-07:00

FUCK IT

So I've been assigned to the cardiology unit. And to be honest this month has been fucking crazy. I've never felt this sad and hopeless. There have been some moments when I thought of hitting the door and getting the fuck out of there.

Yesterday the resident on charge checked on a patient while sending a text message. I couldn't believe it. And all I have to say about it is fuck you!, and i do hope you google my name and find out that I wrote this. Yes fuck you, for being such a fucking asshole. I'll surely be the next person to get dooced.

The patients so far have been really nice, they've all been there for several weeks waiting for all kind of different surgeries. They are mostly man, they have become friends and they get together as soon as they wake up to read the newspaper and talk before breakfast and rounds, you sort of have to drag them back into their own rooms so you can check on them.

On the other side the girls are crying, yelling and asking to go home every five minutes.

There's this woman who lost her son, he got killed right in front of her, so she had a heart attack and doesn't seem to be getting well at all. This other girl who is just 42 years old told me she is really looking forward to not seeing me ever again as I told her I would be there for a month. I guess she just really wants to go home.

Saying no will eventually kill me.

I feel selfish and lonely.

There was this 80 year old man who is not good, and all he did was extend his hand to me after I helped him in a way I wont write cuz it's quite private, but he ended up extending his hand and I didn't get what he wanted, he just shook my hand. He was thanking me. He did remind me of my grandfather and I can tell you I'm still not ok with not having him anymore. When he died a big part of me died with him.

No one will ever get it, but he was my life. And I failed him.

I have to say I'm sorry to everyone who wrote to me this past week, or if I was mean while talking to you, or if I hurt your feelings. But I'm not me if you know what I mean.

2006-10-17T14:39:00.000-07:00

GLOBAL VOICES ONLINE

GOOGLE is the new owner of YOUTUBE.

My new article is up at VLEL [Voces Latinas en Linea] , it's a translation from an article that Jose Murilo Junior wrote for GVO. I chose this article because I think that most of the opinions from bloggers around the globe are damn right. Read it, and wave YouTube as you know it goodbye.

looking for a name

2006-10-06T20:01:00.000-07:00

WHAT SHOULD I CALL HIM / HER?

Before

&

After

Can you believe this???
Right outside the window.
In the middle of the city.
life.
hope.
a future.

Listening to:

2006-10-05T19:04:00.000-07:00

GLOBAL VOICES ONLINE NOW IN SPANISH

My new article is up @ VLEL [Voces Latinas en Linea] , it's actually a translation from an article that Milton Ramirez wrote for GVO, so if you have a blog and if you write in spanish UBH is probably one of the best ways to get your words out there for the world to see.

2006-10-04T13:16:00.000-07:00

WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE WORLD?

Such a crazy week, it all started with me stepping on a church as a family favour and it ended with me passed out naked on a bathroom floor. I had many really near death experiences in my life but this one, I could totally affirm that was it. But somehow I survived. And to be honest I'm tired of surviving.

Now it's fucking raining in the city, everything's wet and horrible.

Life is horrible. So many things to do. So many books to read.

Saw a woman die. Saw a man cry.

I so fucking hate religion and church. Even though I respect those who choose to believe in something better. It seems quite selfish to me. There are many things I don't understand therefore I don't accept it as real. For me it's like an imaginary world, people believe in it, I choose not to, I live here in the real world. But seeing all those people praying was quite eye opening. I can't believe that so many people could be part of such a social dementia for so long. There's almost no history without religion, almost no one lived without someone else telling them what to do or what not to do.

I also got a call this morning from a job I left back in 2004 asking if I wanted to go back.

Hell no.

2006-09-28T17:18:00.000-07:00

I'VE BEEN THINKING...

That maybe I should stop walking around in circles, and just do the things I've always wanted to do.

Listening to:

Mr diablo

2006-09-25T06:37:00.000-07:00

MR. DIABLO

THAT'S THE BEST NICKNAME EVER. SO FUNNY. SO CRUEL. SO ACCURATE.

The best way to start a day ...

2006-09-23T17:55:00.000-07:00

The best way to start a horrible day ...

Takeing public transportation at 6.30 am with no coffee running in my blood.

But you know how life works, nothing it's ever perfect when you take public transportation that early in the morning, perfect means that you survived breathing a million different odors for like 30 minutes, anyhow as we were all pretending to be cool with being all so close to each other we suddenly hear this really high annoying voice getting inside the train, we couldn't see who it belonged to but the sound of this voice started to yell so loud that every word made our ears bleed.

Yep, this little boy entered the subway holding his fathers hand, by this point the train is so full of people that I'm stuck against one door surrounded with a bunch of boys my age, I'm trying not to touch anything except my bag, I'm looking down while everyone inside the sub was silent except for little Michael Jackson, and believe me we couldn't all wait for it to close the door and start it's way to our destination. Death.

The first phrase he yelled was (please take a note): "I'm going to pretend this is a house full of bubbles", his father answered him with a really embarrassed "whatever, r you ok?", but the boys around me yelled back at him "yes he is, I want what he's having", which made it worst because he seemed to gain more power and thought that they wanted him to keep talking ( no one could see each other, we were in opposite sides, so there were only voices talking over a million heads), so that's when he started hallucinating more and more crazy things, all the way every time the door opened he would ask "Are we there yet bubble?" or pretend that he was being killed by bubbles "Bubbleeee... you are going to explode if you touch me". And I'm like why didn't I think of that before?.

So the guy that had his hand inside my ear (that's how close he was) he yells back to the kids father: "Do us all a favour and please take him back to the farm" (farm = code for rehab), at this point every bubble was laughing so hard that all of our own gonads died, just to avoid us a future of that kind of pain again.

THE DIFFERENT ONE

2006-09-06T18:19:00.000-07:00

THE DIFFERENT ONE

So yesterday I was hearing a class with a friend of mine, we were sitting right next to each other and it was 8.30 in the morning, picture a class room full with like 300 people, everyone so silent that you could hear a pin falling on the floor. So there I am half sleep and half listening to the professor when my friend's cell phone started ringing this porno sounding song, everyone turned around and looked at me, I was so fucking humiliated, I didn't really care about the song even though it turned my face into fire in just one sec, I was more scared of the teacher yelling at the zone (zone: the area where we were sitting + people around us). I don't know why but I always get into trouble, I wake up day after day knowing that I will get into trouble somehow, no matter what I do.

So there I was sitting looking at her and all I could think was why was she taking so long to react it's her phone the one that's stripping, from my point of view she took like a year to move her hand into the purse and shut the fucker off. Don't worry the story doesn't end there, so you would think she would shut the fucker right off, but she instead decided that it would be better to whisper a sweet Hello!.

She took the call people. Not only is she the kind of person who leaves her phone on when she enters a class room but she is also the type of person who takes calls anywhere and talks while you are trying to hear the professor talk about lung cancer.

So she whispered for like another hour, not only had she embarrassed the entire zone, and we all know you just don't do that. But my brain needed to explain to others who didn't know her why she was acting like a cavern woman. I suddenly became her public speaker, I had to communicate to the zone why she was whispering, I told them that it was her mother the one who called her, and I didn't lie. I admire people who push the limit and don't care about anything, I have like a magnet for weirdos. Freaks love me, I love them back.

So at around 9 am I still couldn't pay attention with the whole whispering thing, my notes look as white as a summer cloud.

Anyway she ends the call, and says I love you mom. And I'm like what the fuck was all that about, except for the fact that the words that came out were, Is everything ok?, she is like yeah, she just wanted to know if I could buy her a bra. I'm like ok thinking to myself, I can take this, it's a classic ( those are the moments were I feel like I'm Truman and the entire world is waiting for my reaction to the word bra), and that's when it hit me, I'm so so so different from the people I hang out with, I would never say the words I love you to my mother, I mean I love her with all my heart but we are not that kind of people, if I were to use the words ''I love you'' while talking to my mother, she would probably think that I'm dying or something.

Listening to:

GLOBAL VOICES ONLINE NOW IN SPANISH

2006-09-02T06:37:00.000-07:00

GLOBAL VOICES ONLINE NOW IN SPANISH

My new article about the cellulose plant conflict between Argentina and Uruguay is up at Voces Latinas en Linea.

Voces Latinas is the Latin American version of Global Voices Online. If you want to read more about it please go here.

2006-08-29T11:41:00.000-07:00

REASON FOR WHY I NEED TO GET SOME SLEEP

ATTENDING DOCTORS

Me: I just came from seeing this patient and he doesn't look good, we've tried everything but he is still not weighing more than 5.2 pounds.
AD: What?
Me: He is a baby.
AD: Oh, ok then I'll be right there.

After they take an hour to check on the patient those simple words 'I'll be right there' mean 'I don't have the time for you'. Then you defend the patients and you get into trouble, you can totally feel the next words the attendings are about to say when I answer with a ''tone'' in my voice to whatever useless question they ask, and here it comes their own defence with a 'What's wrong?' or 'What's the matter with you', and then I answer 'the system' when all I really want to yell it's 'You'.

Someone once told me not to take things personal if I wanted to survive being surrounded with so much pain, but this is not about me, this is about those who trust us and wait because they believe we will do everything possible to help them. And I feel so sorry I'm part of a system that doesn't work. I wish we could all do our best day after day.

Listening to:

Perfect together

2006-08-14T15:21:00.000-07:00

WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO STOP?

Last Saturday I went to this car expo at a local school and was astonished when I found more than pretty cars, right there walking by my side was what may possible be the most perfect couple in the world. They both looked and acted like they deserved to be together.

As you can see in this picture, one of them was violating public signs all over the walk and taking better pictures than myself for the only fact that he was getting so near the cars [ not cool dude, not cool at all ] , he didn't respect the no passing signs and he definitely couldn't restrict himself from touching the shiny exhibition cars and the other one well . . . what can I say, I guess that Uncle Itt now resides in Argentina.

Not only did they look quite reasonable together but they actually matched with each other.

SUCKER

2006-08-10T14:56:00.000-07:00

SUCKER

2006-08-04T10:56:00.000-07:00

PEACE

900 people death in Lebanon

Seriously what the hell is wrong with those from Israel who took the decision to kill civilians, why can't they talk and solve their problems with Hezbollah. The whole thing is wrong. I wonder why do we get to this point of so much hate. Now innocents are dying or getting damaged forever.

Enough already.

Reading: Israel wages war of starvation.

Questionare

2006-08-02T12:32:00.000-07:00

This questionare is used by James Lipton on all the actors he interviews on 'Inside the actors studio'. I think its a rather interesting way to know more about how crazy I am.

1. What is your favourite word? Treasure , that's what my grandma calls me, Hi Treasure! Bye Treasure!

2. What is your least favourite word? War

3. What turns you on? Laughter / kind eyes

4. What turns you off? Rudeness, selfishness, bigotry, ignorance , homophobia, racism and egotism.

5. What sound do you love? Ocean / Piano

6. What sound do you hate? Loud people fighting or when someone yells to a kid or to an animal.

7. What profession would you love to attempt? Photographer / Musician

8. What profession would you never like to attempt? Job Recruiter

9. What's your favourite curse word? Holy fucking shit

10. If God exists, what would you like to hear him/her say at the pearly gates? I would like to hear her say "see I'm real and I'm sorry for taking them away, now go hug them before the concert starts".

new lay out

2006-07-28T19:09:00.000-07:00

NEW LAY OUT

First of all I just designed a new lay out, in like 5 minutes, so please be nice and dig change as nicely as you have done in the past. ok?.ok.

So What I've been up to lately....let's begin with what's on the top of the sucky things to tell, things that happened to me in the last 7 days.

Well I survived an allergic reaction that started last friday, I'm much better now but to be honest I couldn't really breath for two days after suffering an anaphylactic shock. I got some meds at the er and by tuesday every sign was gone, my face came back to a normal human colour.

This past week has been an irony. I'll write about it later, because right now I won't be truly fair to anyone not even to myself. Now what I'm going to do is enjoy what's left of this sucky friday, drinking and hearing the most beautiful and calming voice in the world. Tonight's choices are probably a million Cappuccinos and Sarah's DVD, I'll play it so loud that YOU will hear it, just because I really need to sing, yell and pass out.

cheers.

Listening to: Heather Nova - Heart and Shoulder

sometimes i laugh

2006-07-07T09:49:00.001-07:00

SOMETIMES I LAUGH

True Story

Patient Number 1 (E): 80 years old woman, a healthy and brilliant lady who can not walk sitting in the waiting room.

Patient Number 2 (A): 82 years old man, who needs help of someone else to hold him when he walks.

Patient Number 3 (M): 85 years old woman, schizophrenic, with no memory, a really difficult case of senile dementia, just sitting on a wheel chair.

1 sees that number 2 is standing up without anyone helping him.

1: (yelling) Where are you going A?

2: (really calm) To the bathroom E.

1: be careful A.

3: (SCREAMING) Where is he going?

1: he is going to the bathroom.

3: (SCREAMING) Where?

1: (yelling) TO THE BATHROOM.

3: (looks at him and screams) LIAR!!!!!!!!!!

Listening to:

2006-07-04T18:28:00.000-07:00

ITALY I SO FUCKING LOVE YOU

Being my second nationality, I don't think I've ever yelled a goal so loud. I was driving back home and every car in the city honked their horns while listening to the radio man yelling the longest and sweetest GOOOOOOALLLLLLLLLLLLL and with two minutes before the penalties, a truly Argentinean moment, we couldn't be happier for Italy.

Listening to:

SONGS

2006-07-02T12:28:00.000-07:00

SONGS I CAN'T GET OUT OF MY HEAD

COLDPLAY - Fix you.

KEANE - Bedshaped.

JAMES BLUNT - Wisemen.

JACK JOHNSON - Sitting, Waiting, Wishing.

THE MAGIC NUMBERS - Love me like you.

2006-06-30T07:52:00.000-07:00

ARGENTINA VS. GERMANY

I'm watching but I don't think I can take it. My brother made me promise yesterday that if we win we have to go to church... because we haven't been to one in years, and I really don't care at all I just want to win.

And just because I believe in my team I'm going to say it....

VAMOS ARGENTINA!

Whatever I have to do I'll do it.

HALF TIME UPDATE: If I ever meet Tevez I'll kiss his feet.

THIS IS GOING TO HURT ... AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!

UPDATE EXTRA TIME: I don't think I'm breathing anymore.

UPDATE PENALTIES: FUCK .

LAST UPDATE: Argentina played 10 times better than Germany. We lost and I'm fine with it. Don't cry boys, you did well. We are really proud of you all here back home.

So no church for mua!

Technorati tags: WORLD CUP, Argentina.

2006-06-29T18:01:00.000-07:00

FRIENDS

Today some old folks taught me what might be the biggest lesson anyone has ever taught me.

I never really got it until today, having the perfect twin sister I never really needed friends nor did I ever wanted anyone else in my life, I had several friends when I was younger but I don't think I was ever honest to them because I was not into that kind of relations, but today I was stunned staring at this group of really old people helping and respecting each other, they showed me what I see in my relation with my sister, NO JUDGING - LOVE - RESPECT, they were all really sick and suffering different kinds of pain, some couldn't walk some couldn't talk, some couldn't do anything but stare at me back while I was trying to talk to them, but the ones that could help a friend with whatever tiny problem they were having, they did it without hesitation.

So the point and I do have one it's that you are never too old or too sick to care about others. Caring will bring you peace. The peace that we all look for our entire lives.

Listening to:

2006-06-28T15:41:00.000-07:00

O K A Y

I just spent 15 minutes talking to an old lady who nodded to everything I said. I noticed she was silent after I had finished asking several questions. But after let's call it her ''break'' she answered whatever she wanted to say. I was answering her weird answers with some really unsure OKAY's, suddenly everything made sense. I told her I had to go, and she answered:

''Why don't you let me put on my hearing device so I can hear you better''.

Listening to:

AHHHH

2006-06-15T18:41:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHH

Today I feel like yelling, I shouldn't write at all because I'm so angry that I might not make sense, but I really feel the need to say something about the Health System here in ARGENTINA (yes in ARGENTINA), for all of you that don't care just because that's not where you live, or maybe because you are too busy caring about that stupid soccer world cup, please hear me out because this is a problem that probably affects every person in every city in every country.

The main problem with Health Systems around the world is that no one cares, so no ones says anything so no one does anything, no one takes care of those who need the laws to be fair, no one respects the laws because there's no one there to make sure they are respected.

And I'm sorry I've been such a pain in the ass lately but I have gotten to a point in my life where I can't just turn around and not care when all I see is people hurting and in so much pain for things that could be easily taking care of.

So many people dying alone....so many doctors letting them die because the system WONT PAY FOR TREATMENT....patients that paid all their lives are being refused treatment...because they are too old??? ...let me just say that I'm sorry I'm part of this system. I'll fight them till the day I die. I don't care that they hate me, I don't care that they threaten me, I don't care that I don't get promoted, I don't care that I don't have any money, I care about the patients, and the way they look at me, their eyes are all I care about. A silent language that I get, I know how they feel, I know that they trust me, I would never do anything to hurt them, so I wont let the system defeat me. I'll fight and yell till the day I die.

When did medicine become a business????

When does someone start caring more about the $$$$$ than the patients eyes.

And today I'll yell for all of us even if I'm one in just one place, because if we don't say anything they will win, they will continue killing us while they continue filling their pockets with our money.

How to freak me out: Asking for my blood type.

Listening to:

Technorati tags: Health System, Argentina.

Vocabulary

2006-06-11T16:16:00.000-07:00

BLOOD DEATH AND WHAT HAS BECOME MY DAILY VOCABULARY

CANCER

LEUKEMIA

ACV

LITTLE BOYS

LITTLE GIRLS

BABYS

MOTHERS

FATHERS

GRANDMAS

GRANDPAS

FRIENDS

FAMILY

LOVE ONES

I can't seem to get the image of a little girl with leukemia out of my head, she was dressed all in pink, waiting alone under the rain outside the hospital last thursday.

RESPECT

SENSIBILITY

LOVE

OBJECTIVENESS

LIFE

TIME

PAIN

HELP

I LOVE THE AUTUMN BUT I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS ONE TO GO AWAY.

Listening to:

2006-06-02T15:46:00.000-07:00

CLUMSY DAY

Once in a while I have a clumsy day, today was one of those days. On a day like today you will only find me either kicking or hitting or breaking stuff, whatever that's on my way you name it I'll kick/hit or break. Things that would normally pass unnoticed will surely die on my clumsy day.

Like for example, today I glued my fingers together, my left hand looks like I'm a reptile from V, on days like today someone should lock myself out and don't allow me to have contact with people. Seriously there's nothing I can do for you, I won't help you, I won't cure you, I'll only mark you for life, with either a fun memory or a hateful one toward my person.

Well now that the day is almost over, I'm thinking of all the things I did, how many people I've freaked out, and I must admit I'm a little nostalgic, cuss tomorrow I'll miss cracking myself up with something I did or accidentally said.

At least I'll continue the mission of getting my fingers apart, it's like the day after getting drunk, except for the fact that my hangover it's way more fun, I get to PEEL MY SKIN!.

ORACLE

2006-05-19T12:36:00.000-07:00

WHEN ORACLE BECOMES MY WORST NIGHTMARE

2006-05-08T18:03:00.000-07:00

LAST PHOTOGRAPH

So last Thursday at about 8.30 pm in the night I got mugged. I was walking back home alone down Belgrano's avenue right in the center of the city, I got out of the subway and I noticed all these old cars parked down the street like donuts on Homers way after a hard day at work, they were parked all the way to my apartment, they were candy for the eye and of course I had to take my camera out of my back pack and start taking pictures, lot's of people were taking photographs and we all wondered why they had used our street as a car museum, I met this cool boy named Adrian who gave me the reason, apparently they park about 50 old cars all around town in hope of getting tourists to rent them for the night. Adrian also asked for my photoblogs url, cool kid, Hi there!.

Anyways I take around 300 pictures and as I'm taking one more someone hits me, grabs my hands, and yells 'give me everything you have right now' he also said 'let go of the camera' because I wasn't moving from my fetal position (now that I think about it, it all lasted probably a few seconds, but it felt more like an hour), I yelled back several times 'there's no way I'll give you anything', but he grabbed the camera's lenses as I was holding the body, I really fought for it while trying to kick this mans balls, all he could do was break the lenses and run away, all the people that were there did nothing to help me, after he run away they all asked 'Did he steal something from you?' (note aside: that's not what you should ask first, what about a simple, Are you ok?) , and I'm like 'where the hell were you?', anyways he run away and all I could do was look at my camera and wonder why. I felt so hopeless.

See I know how much these people are suffering but nothing justifies the fact that he decided to mug me before asking for help or even money for food.

That night I couldn't sleep at all, every voice I heard sounded like his. Don't get me wrong I was not really scared, but I felt this bad energy and all I could do was fight and yell NO.

It was the first time I was mugged while being alone, in the past for some reason every time I got mugged I was always with my sister, and we would tell the story a million times 'you know WE JUST GOT MUGGED', I remember the first time, at a summer's club, someone stole both of our new sandals while we went swimming, then this time when we both left our high school building and we had our bikes with us, my sister turns to me and says let's hurry to get home early, and half of the way two really big boys grabbed her, she fought for the bike and yelled so much that they had to walk away, (actually we both yelled but she yelled to me asking for me to go away so they wouldn't grab me too, that's how good of a person she is, & of course I didn't go anywhere) I remember that once they let her go without a working chain we both yelled for like 3 minutes at this huge guys (from a distance), 'You fucking LOSERS, go do something with your life!'. Well then there were two similar episodes involving two different man, one probably 70 and the other 30, from inside their cars, as we were walking home from school they gave us a free anatomy class. Truly horrible, a memory I would pay to get removed. Yuck yuck yuck so happy I've shared with you. Ha!

(How the hell did I ever survive Anatomy in med school?)

So anyway I realize I'm not as materialistic as I thought I was, it will take me some time to replace the lens but I know that I will work for it. I have lost more important things in my life than that, he on the other hand will probably buy alcohol or drugs and keep mugging which is in the end pretty sad.

Despite all I was lucky he didn't hurt me. But no matter how many ways and explanations I have to deal with this, nothing NOTHING justifies what he did. On times like this it really pays off not being a religious person because I know I will eventually forgive him, even though I am having a really hard time with it I know that someday I will.

Now that a few days have passed I'm in a place where I can laugh about it, see I had been having problems with the lenses, every picture I took seem to have some pixels lost, or black spots, so I was thinking about taking it to the techs office, with that said he did me a favour and made me stop procrastinating about whether I should take it or not.

Here you can see the picture I was taking, that's his hand attacking me.

LISTENING TO: STRAYS DON'T SLEEP - FOR BLUE SKIES.

so

2006-04-28T19:23:00.000-07:00

U BETTER RUN ... FAR ... FAR AWAY FROM ME

It's raining but who cares it's fucking FRIDAY!!

Some thoughts:

1) You are not really EMO if you have to actually say you are.

2) When I pay with a $100 bill you shouldn't ask me for coins. Lately every shop I go to ends up with me leaving after having a fight with a cashier because they demand me to pay them with the exact amount of coins, every time I say I don't have change they say 'then I'll own you', all this shit so they can steal from me the extra cents. Thank god there was a glass between the cashier and me today, but this girl had the nerves to use the mic and yell 'I think you are being rude and I feel like you are mocking me'... I'm like 'RIGHT, now you are the fucking Victim, come on, can you please call your supervisor? ' You know what's rude to expect every customer to walk with their pockets full of coins so they can give you the exact amount of money, we are not your fucking bank. At least ask your co-workers before yelling I'm rude with that stupid microphone.

3) Don't ever try to argue with someone that spits in the street. I told a guy that
it was selfish, gross, antisocial and an uneducated thing to do, see we humans are not animals, we don't need to spit, I then asked him if he would like to live in a world where everybody spits wherever they want like guanacos not thinking of others, he said no, so I asked him what gave him the right to be the one doing it. It's a horrible thing to do plus it's physiologic unnecessary so I begged him to please stop doing that and then I added 'DUDE come on(totally trying to GET to his brain)kids walk on this street'. So after making my point I don't think I was ever that scare in my life of turning around and walking away, I could totally feel a bomb coming my way.

4) That you could laugh so hard after hearing a sex phone conversation in the subway, good god, this girl sitting right next to me, what a mouth, so funny. She had an audience believe me.

5) I don't know what's worst, regretting not doing something or regretting doing it. Probably both.

Listening to: James Blunt- Tears and Rain.

2006-04-12T15:20:00.000-07:00

APRIL JESS

She is loving the Autumn.

On a personal note I'm still sick, and to tell you the truth I'm sick of it.

music

2006-04-05T16:21:00.000-07:00

SO

Previously I suggested some songs for you guys to look for at
RADIO BLOG CLUB, you can read them HERE.

Today's recommendations are:

Ani Difranco - Out Of Range - Falling Is Like This

Tracy Chapman - Where You Live - Change

Cat Power - The Covers Record - (I can't get no) Satisfaction

Sarah Mclachlan - Afterglow - Fallen

Belle & Sebastian - Dear Catastrophe Waitress - If She Wants Me

Kathleen Edwards - Failer - Hockey Skates.

2006-04-01T06:39:00.000-08:00

SO SICK

Today's one week since I had the first symptoms of this flu/cold. As of today I don't think I'll ever be able to breath again, my larynx is literally on fire.

I have tried it all. Lots of liquids, hot tea, honey, soap, coffee, booze, but nothing calms the pain and the aching, I feel like my soul is itching.

One cup of coffee and it came to me. There's no way out, no cure, fever delusions make me dream of cutting my throat and taking the virus out by myself, but I fought those crazy feelings and decided to attack it with all the useless drugs in the world. They didn't work alone so maybe If I mix them all together they will gain more power who knows.

And because I'm not a big fan of blood I introduce to you my army:

Some meds for my migraines, some skin care products for my nasal area (don't laugh), cough medicine, tic tacs seem to stop the constant coughing for like 2 minutes in the middle of the night, add to that mix some water and I guarantee that you'll at least hallucinate you are healthy.

So far this virus seems to be new in town (Buenos Aires), attacking larynxes of innocents and staying there for more time than anyone can handle without losing their mind, and at the end of the day all we can do is wait till our delicate immune systems stop being so girly girls about it and fight the fuckers out of us, or till we take major actions and someone writes our cause of death that would read something like this: "massive blood lost caused by a deep and wild cut in the neck. I can't say if they were suicidal or just plain Psychotic trying to remove viral cells, but the injuries seem to be self induced, notice the smile on their faces".

Tags: Larynx, Virus, Autumn, Buenos Aires, Argentina.

HI 5

2006-03-24T14:46:00.000-08:00

HI 5

Hello fall

2006-03-21T13:32:00.000-08:00

HELLO FALL

Today just to cheer you all up, I decided to write about Cancer. So if you are sad or about to kill yourself please stop reading right now, if today you had a perfect day you should also stop reading, I don't want to be blamed for ruining it. Everyone else feel free to do whatever you want.

ABOUT CANCER:

So when someone chooses to do nothing about it, or when they choose to stop treatment for me it's not giving up, it's a decision, the hardest one. I know many doctors wont agree with me, but from my personal experience, I would definitely offer every possible treatment, but I'll never talk about a cure till the day I can see a treatment that really cures it. (For those who would throw me back the mental health status, of course it changes my view, but I'll always answer the same way, aren't we all a little depress, we don't live in a perfect world, of course a person with cancer is depress, I would be worried if they weren't. In general everyone in the health system is so it's all quite relative).
Having said that, I will never force anyone into treatment, as hard as that decision is.

I sometimes find it hard to understand how people deal with cancer by just denying having it. They not only ignore the word but they end up usually ignoring the treatment.

I accept I have a problem with ignoring the disease, some people don't talk about it after they have been diagnosed, and maybe that's because not having the words as part of their daily vocabulary makes them forget that they have it. But the truth is that your death sentence is growing inside of you, the truth is that your body is constantly killing you, and doing nothing about it will not only kill you but it will affect those who care about you forever.

And I have been thinking about this for as long as I can remember, and it's hard when it's your own mother taking that decision, when it's my own mother saying no to treatment.

So today Autumn begins here in the south of the earth and all I see in my future is pain, I'm so scare of the future, and I'm also doing the things I hate, I'm ignoring the future, I don't want to have to deal with tomorrow today. My mom is here, nothing can ruin it. The smallest things in my daily routine seem foolish, stupid, and selfishness is definitely a word I took out of my vocabulary, anything negative is so not worth of my time anymore.

I know that the future will suck. I know that I have always love the fall and I'm thinking that today it's ok. Yes today I'm ok with all this crazy decisions.
I don't know how I'll feel about them tomorrow. But today as hard as it is, I'm fine.

Of course that is just me and it's always harder to be my mother.

I want to change some things about my life, and it always comes down the same things, my priorities, for me that means time, time with those I love.

Hate me, love me for my words, today I don't really care, do whatever you want, but while you do that, I'm going back to living my life the way I want to live it.

2006-03-17T19:18:00.000-08:00

I'M ALL FOR EQUAL RIGHTS AND NO UNISEX BATHROOMS

I address this to all members of the male sex everywhere.

I hate unisex bathrooms, and listen I don't care how liberal you are, don't defend them. Unisex bathrooms have become so popular and common nowadays but for me they are like entering to hell itself, they are so disgusting that a two minutes visit to the bathroom ends up taking 30 minutes of me puking after seeing the most horrible fluids sprayed onto just about every surface.

And I admit that the state of the stalls in most women's rooms is disgusting as well but come on, men are stinky.

How can you guys use those urinals full with pubic hairs?, I go into an unisex bathroom and the first thing I usually see are those curly dark hairs laying all over the urinals (go vomit I'll wait), ok (be brave!) I don't know what are you all doing while you are peeing but in an unisex bathroom YUCK! It's not like it's that difficult for men, I mean you have the perfect pee-direction-instrument attached to your body. Just point and shoot for gods sake. And please clean after you are done, also wash your hands before you cross the door out back to the world.

Last but not least, DON'T YOU DARE TOUCHING ME AFTER VISITING THE BATHROOM. No matter how much soap and water you say you've used, I'll never believe it. So know that I'll kill you.

Or cut it, your choice.

Technorati tags: Unisex bathrooms, Buenos Aires, Gross.

FRAGILE LITTLE FLOWER

2006-03-14T19:12:00.000-08:00

FRAGILE LITTLE FLOWER

Cold water thrown into the roots
of the fragile little flower
So cold that she crawls
She closes with the wind and the darkness of the night
Like she knew what's next
The sun leaves and she turns

She yells
I'm dying slow on this earth
With no privacy
Naked in the dirt
What did I do to deserve this?

Just a fragile little flower
Her last words were

I had no freedom
I saw beautiful birds fly all around me
I envied them
Saw flowers grow all around me
Felt I was not alone

But nothing was never enough
I had to stare and wait
Water didn't hydrate me
Sunshine didn't light me
I tried believing
I followed the sun
trying to grow
So I could see further away

Just a
Fragile little flower
Fragile little flower
Fragile little flower
What do I do?
What do I do?

Anything
Anything
I can do
Anything
can't bring you back.

Copyright 2006 Ana Toniolli

PERSONAL UPDATE: So I won a scholarship with ORACLE today. I'm so happy, I really hope I do good, keep your fingers cross for me. I took some tests and I had some interviews last week, here's the picture I added to my CV, they said I didn't look 24, I continued to say that I wasn't as sweet as I looked either. I have no idea why they chose me but I'm really happy to be able to do this.

So

2006-03-12T15:02:00.000-08:00

So

This is a someone told her, she told him, so he told me kinda thing.

Some guy at work told my sister, she told me, so I'm telling you.

It's call ALCOHOL, no no no I'm kidding ( am I?), anyway it's call RADIO BLOG CLUB. Check it out. Thank me later. (Jacek you are welcome, and it's never too late).

I recommend:

James Blunt - Goodbye my lover

Sigur Ros - Untitled 4

Damien Rice - The blowers daughter

Sonata Arctica - Shy

Sarah Harmer - Basement apartment

Cat Power - The greatest

Feist - Let it die - Mushaboom

KT Tunstall - Other side of the world.

I SHOULD HAVE NAMED HER TROUBLE

2006-03-09T06:00:00.000-08:00

I SHOULD HAVE NAMED HER TROUBLE

2006-02-24T18:04:00.000-08:00

SHE IS ONE YEAR OLD

CARNAVAL ARE NOT THE ANSWER

2006-02-18T15:22:00.000-08:00

CARNAVALS WON'T CURE HUNGER

The city of Buenos Aires spent more than $600.000 in a carnival. What's worst is that most people wanted this shiny corsos to come back as a cultural thing we had lost.

I didn't take a picture of the party because I don't believe in wasting money (the money they collect with my taxes ) in buying really small cloth for woman to show their almost naked bodies while they dance and everyone pretends this is a cultural event. Fucking bullshit I can not tell you how angry I am. While this party is taking place in the center of the city right now this is the picture I took some minutes ago 3 squares away from there.

WHEN WILL WE STOP BEING SO FUCKING STUPID AND SELFISH?

LINK: Clarin

Technorati tags:

Carnaval, Corsos, Buenos Aires , Argentina.

2006-02-16T14:25:00.000-08:00

I LOVE CATS AS MUCH AS I LOVE DOGS

For all those people that say that they hate cats.

I.D.I.O.T.S.

2006-02-13T12:53:00.000-08:00

SLEEPING BY THE EDGE

BEFORE

AFTER

She is like HELP ME BITCH, and you can totally see me still while I shoot the picture.

2006-02-11T18:51:00.000-08:00

I'd spend a lifetime with you

2006-02-09T15:46:00.000-08:00

THE CELLULOSE PLANT CONFLICT

Since April 2005, there have been lots of discussions about whether it's ok for a country to use a common river as a septic tank without the others countries approval to do so.

Well the Uruguay river flows north to south and makes boundary with Argentina, Brazil and Uruguay. We all share it and there are laws that doesn't allow anyone to pollute it.

Uruguay allowed Botnia a business group from Finland to start building the cellulose plant by the side of the river at Fray Bentos (Uruguay) opposite to Gualeguaychu (Argentina).

A Finnish and a Spanish company want to invest $1.7bn in the two pulp mills.

Of course the people of Argentina are doing all we can to stop this. Greenpeace is working so hard trying to keep them out of here.

Look I think it's fantastic that politicians create new jobs, industries and they should stimulate other countries to invest here but to allow just ANYONE to kill us?? Did we actually check first who this people were? The reasons for why they want to come here? Cuz I don't think it's only because its cheap, I think their priority reason is to be as near as possible to the Amazon so they can once for all finish cutting every single tree in the area.

Not one job justifies the millions of people we are putting on risk for cancer in the near future. It may be cheap for them to build here but the cost of life and health investment for us in the next few years will provably not be so c h e a p, and believe me they will not pay for it, they will clean their hands with clear water in Europe after counting their millions.

If we don't stop them now they will pollute us for ever. They will fill us with diseases,
Picture cancer all around, NORTH SOUTH EAST WEST.
Everywhere.

These are our trees people. This is our oxygen. This is our water. This is our home. When will we start thinking about Latin America, this man only seek for money and they don't see we are part of the WORLD, that this will kill the world.
Everyone's World.

So what will happen when the weather continues to get wilder?

Do we want the crazy weather we've been having in the last couple of years all over the planet?

Do we want the glaciers to melt away?
Do we want more water in the ocean with the following floodings?

Do we want to cure Cancer?

Do we want to protect our Animals?

Cuz there's no paper you could offer to me that will make all the world's cost worthed.

I think we need clean waters, clean 02, trees to be be able to breath and live.

And to those who say that we all read the paper, we all read books, we all use paper in whatever form it may be, there are other solutions. We need to start planting more trees if we want to cut them. We need to control all the Mr. Burns in the paper business. We should allow them to use a really small % of the trees they plant.

We can not continue living and wasting without planning and thinking about our future.

We need to control those plants that already exist.

So I'm saying no to another plant.

And I will say it

ANYDAY.

We need to stop them now, please visit www.greenpeace.org.ar and sign the letter asking both presidents to stop them.

Not matter where you are from please sign. This is a world issue. We own it this much.

LINKS:

BBC
GREENPEACE BLOG

Technorati tags:

Papeleras, Argentina, Uruguay, Conflict, Greenpeace , Cellulose Plant , South America.

2006-01-27T14:38:00.000-08:00

ROAD TRIP

Last weekend I took a 7 hour trip to visit my folks, they are staying at one of the oldest beaches in Argentina, I spent many summers there as a kid and I had some days off so I decided to take a break.

I guess my favourite part of the trip was being in a lonely road, listening to really cool music, watching the sun set, definitly the car's air conditioner.

The view:

Not bad, right?

And to those who care about my state of mind, I did cry, but I only cried twice. And I thought I was doing better, so much for thinking, I guess you just never really get over it. Plus the idea of visiting old places was not really the smartest one. But taking pictures and walking in the beach was good. It was definitely a positive experience.

I needed the fresh air. Even though sometimes I feel I could take any air just to breath and get some peace, but it was good, I have many stories so stay tune.

THE ANGEL FROM HELL

2006-01-08T14:53:00.000-08:00

THE ANGEL FROM HELL

Usually when I get home she always acts like a wild hyena for like 10 minutes, of course that's normal behaviour for her, that's simple her way of saying hi to me and I'm used to it but on new years she was acting completely weird comparing to her usual weirdness, after those 10 minutes she continued to fall asleep as I was starting to realize the destruction this cute and sweet animal could do when she is possess with fear.

Apparently at the same time I was enjoying these fireworks she was using the noise as her drug for energy to complete her mission of destroying the few things she had forgiven from death till now.

I wish I had taken a photograph of the whole crime scene.

THE COST OF A NEW YEAR NIGHT OUT

Cleaning her mess while being bitten by her
=
10 minutes of my life I'll never get back

Fixing an antique lamp
=
An eye of my face

A triple By-Pass after finding this in the morning
=
150 Tears

Jessie = Priceless

She is ready

2005-12-31T11:53:00.000-08:00

SHE IS READY

For Stuff on my cat. com

Happy New Year!

fake snow

2005-12-19T17:56:00.000-08:00

FOR THOSE WHO HATE SUMMER AS MUCH AS I DO

We are moving. Period.

Junin de los Andes here we come.

Unknown

2005-12-15T08:24:00.000-08:00

"Watch your thoughts, for they become words. Choose your words, for they become actions. Understand your actions, for they become habits. Study your habits, for they will become your character. Develop your character, for it becomes your destiny."

Author Unknown.

BE GENEROUS.

The war in numbers

2005-12-14T05:52:00.000-08:00

THE WAR IN NUMBERS

Published: 13 December 2005 from The Independent Online Edition

$204.4 billion The cost to the US of the war so far. The UK's bill up until March 2005 was 3.1 billion

2,339 Allied troops killed

98 UK troops killed

30,000 Estimated Iraqi civilian deaths

0 Number of WMDs found

8 per cent of Iraqi children suffering acute malnutrition

$35,819m World Bank estimated cost of reconstruction

53,470 Iraqi insurgents killed

67 per cent Iraqis who feel less secure because of occupation

$343 Average monthly salary for an Iraqi soldier. Average monthly salary for an American soldier in Iraq: $4,160.75

66 journalists killed in Iraq. Journalists killed during Vietnam war: 63

5 foreign civilians kidnapped per month

47 per cent Iraqis who never have enough electricity

20 casualties per month from unexploded mines

20 per cent Inflation rate 2005

25-40 per cent Estimated unemployment rate, Nov 2005

251 Foreigners kidnapped

70 per cent of Iraqi's whose sewage system rarely works

183,000 British and American troops are still in action in Iraq. There are 162,000 US troops and 8,000 British with 13,000 from other nations

90 Daily attacks by insurgents in Nov '05. In Jun '03: 8

82 per centIraqis who are "strongly opposed" to presence of coalition troops

15,955 US troops wounded in action.

jessie

2005-12-10T07:23:00.000-08:00

She was supposed to keep me awake.

I sold my soul and life when I got her. She took over my life. I can't study in bed at 3 am anymore. I would totally show off like her if I were a cat.

I'm kinda proud of her meanness.

Hate

2005-12-08T10:07:00.000-08:00

I hate this time of the year. I hate this fucking Holiday/Christmas season. I'm tired of this horrible hot days already, and summer hasn't even officially started yet. I hate rainy days like today. I hate the fact that I have to leave my warm room just to go inside a dirty train on a day no one has to go to work.

I'm sick of everyone being happy and nice when all I really want to do is fucking run.

And just to add some more darkness into the mix, I'll share my naked mind with you.

I hate the fact that I have no answers.

I hate seeing my grandma crying.

I would kill myself just so my mom wouldn't have breast cancer.

LISTENING TO: IAN LOVE

AMEN

2005-11-30T08:42:00.000-08:00

AMEN

SORRY EARTH

2005-11-23T18:21:00.000-08:00

SORRY EARTH

I'm so embarrassed to live in a country where it's ok to kill animals just to make soccer balls.

Jessie

2005-11-15T14:15:00.000-08:00

SO

I just wanted to thank the guys from global voices online for spreading my words, I think it's way to cool to have people from around the world reading and getting to know what's really going on.

As for myself, I apologize for the luck of updates but I've been really busy in (how should I put it?) trying to keep breathing. Don't try to read between words, I know what I write and how powerful my words are but that's the truth, I think that the road I'm taking is not the right one for me. So I'm heading another direction from now on. Changes are all I see in my future and I better get use to them cuz that's what life is all about so I need to get over some things and I'll be ready to start, I can just feel it. I think I'll be fine cuz I'm loving this solitude I feel.

Now let's bring some love back to this blog, and who is better for that than my lovely and beautiful Jessie, with who I continue to share some mental health issues as you can see.

She definitely belongs to me.

Bush

2005-10-29T09:15:00.000-07:00

ARGENTINA ANTI BUSH

So Bush is scheduled to come to Argentina next week (Nov 4 - 5 ), he'll visit the city of Mar del Plata for the IV Reunion of American countries. Not only artists are expressing the rejection towards his visit but kids, adults and old people don't want to see his face in our land. He is definitely not welcome here.

Authorities say that we have the security we need to have in the streets but I aint seeing anything, I'm afraid that the subway and train security is not enough, as of today you could walk carrying a bag and a sign saying BOMB , without anyone stopping you to check if it's true or not.

Apparently next Friday all public workers in Argentina won't be going to work just to protest against his presence here, this means no public hospitals or schools are going to be open except for the er's. I mean he is an asshole by creating wars, killing innocents, not going to important conventions where he should be the first to sit down and listen like for example the KYOTO convention. The only reason of why Kirchner wants him here is because he thinks it will be better in terms of profits for the city of Mar del Plata, he never really stopped to think that the people of MDP prefer not dying on hands of terrorists more than having a dollar extra in their pockets. I'm mean they should definitely get together they are equally stupid and selfish, they should get along just fine.

The ATE (Asociacion Trabajadores del Estado) and the CTA
Central de los Trabajadores Argentinos de la Capital Federal are asking everyone to protest and be part of marches next friday across the country.

SO NOT THE RIGHT ANSWER.

STOPPING A COUNTRY BECAUSE BUSH IS COMING IS STUPID.

KIDS NOT GOING TO SCHOOL BECAUSE OF HIS VISIT IS UNFORGIVEABLE.

AT THE END OF THE DAY HE DOESN'T EVEN CARE ABOUT ANTHING BUT HIMSELF.

HE WILL PROBABLY LOOK AT THE CITY WITH HIS FACE PAINTED IN EVERY WALL AND SAY THANK YOU, LET'S FIGHT TERRORISM TOGETHER.

Technorati tags: George Bush, Argentina, IV Cumbre de las Americas, streetart, afiches, repudio

com

2005-10-24T10:59:00.000-07:00

COMMENTS

They are back on for the photoblog.

Spam comments are not welcome on this site so please be good.

UPDATE: (10/26/05)
So they are gone, first comments were all spams linking to other blogs offering free ads, it's quite annoying plus time consuming to be deleting them, I just think it's sad we can't have some sort of antispam system working within blogger.

H5N1

2005-10-05T15:01:00.000-07:00

H5N1

So apparently no one gives a shit about the H5N1 virus. Even though it could be a worldwide health catastrophe no one is doing anything to prevent this virus from spreading across the world.

Presidents ignore the issue because they know nothing about it, I mean there is not much they can do but at least they could take some action by letting people know, they could tell the media to aware people about it, it seems like they are waiting till we start hearing about thousands of people dying from an unknown disease that we never heard of to excuse themselves, but the truth is that we've known about this virus since 1918 , there were three worldwide outbreaks of the flu back in 1918, 1957 and 1968. We need to start learning from our past.

As you know this virus changed, their genes changed, sometimes human and bird virus exchange genes, when the bird virus acquires genetic changes it allows human to human spreading, that's what scientifics across the world fear is happening as you read this.

So far the flu has killed 59 people in Asia who contracted the virus from contact with domestic or wild birds.

The WHO has warned that the risk of a bird-flu pandemic is at its highest since a 1968 outbreak, and that 2 million to 7.4 million people could die in a pandemic.

I think it's time for Presidents to start hearing those who know about the issues, those who know about public health, and do something.

SPRING

2005-09-22T15:29:00.000-07:00

SPRING IS HERE

I wanted to share this picture with you because this tree means so many things to so many people. It's in my Grandmother's house, and for the past two years it hasn't really bloomed at all, I guess everyone and everything felt too sad to even try to deal with the fact that the person we had loved the most was gone, something that is still so unbelievable to our minds and to our hearts.

I have no words to describe how much we all loved him. I know that my Grandma is trying to be strong for all of us, but she misses him so much, he was her eyes, her best friend, her caring husband, he was her love.

I believe he wanted all of my family to see it, and tell us that is ok to move on, that we need to accept change, that he wants all of his grandchildren to just be happy.

I truly believe he wanted her to see their tree full of beautiful little flowers again. And let her know everything's going to be ok.

KEEP WALKING

2005-09-19T05:51:00.000-07:00

KEEP WALKING ANA

Yesterday we had a perfect sunny sunday afternoon, it was a perfect winter day, I walked around town just to find unexpected things like this street expo of little puppies and kittens. It was like I was in heaven, I just couldn't keep my hands off them, there were some little girls and boys traying to touch them and the owners wouldn't let them, I was trying to get some pictures so as soon as I asked for a picture they would take their pets out of the little boxes and make them pose. The kids went nuts everytime so I didn't have much trouble pushing them to the sides, I started to play mind games with them ... "AND NOW LET'S SEE HOW I TAKE A PICTURE SO WE CAN SEE IT!!!" and they would answer "YAY". Idiots. But they were all so cute even the kids, did I just said that? Sigh!*". They started following me cuz that was their only chance to pet the puppies. So we all got something out of it.

To top that I even had time to go to the beach. And I'm glad I went because I wont have that amount of time anyday soon, with finals and all.

SOME HIGHLIGHTS:

So apparently someone was high when they chose this picture WTCBA
as a favorite on MOODY MONDAY for the theme "Reflecting". I'm flattered. Thank you so much.

Happy Birthday Jacek! This is going to be a great year for you, enjoy your special day to the fullest!!

DRUGS

2005-09-13T19:30:00.000-07:00

GIVE ME SOME MORE DRUGS

Well well well look who's back... Yes I know I owned you an update on how she was doing, and let me tell you this cat is the strongest cat I've ever met. She survived two surgeries and is recovering really well, this past week she has been really tired, she sleeps almost 23 hs a day, then she eats, drinks and begs for some more drugs as I beg her to please share them with me, but she wont YOU SELFISH LITTLE PRECIOUS SUNSHINE ( that's how I call her ). But she is healing really well and I'm starting to relax a little bit now, which means that we both need to start getting over our fears of getting out of these four walls and start confronting the outside world.

Seeing her hurting was horrible but now I'm just really happy she is back.

This is her 'could we possibly get rid of that camera now?' face.

I wanna thank all of you for your emails. They meant a lot to me. :)

2005-09-10T08:20:00.000-07:00

WASH YOUR HANDS

So today the attending doctor on charge of med students informed us that one student had called to say that she had a really bad intestinal obstruction caused by an Ascaris Lumbricoides. The point is that we've been studying in the lab that particular parasite for like a week and now she was being treated in some private clinic for thousands of parasites growing in her bowel.

She refused to ever come back to med school. The attending said that she'd probably gotten it because she was eating in the lab. Believe me don't ever take anything to your mouth without cleaning your hands at least a million times before you do so.

By this time the class started to spit mints out, many pens were taken out of mouths and thrown across the room.

He said some one needed to call her and tell her to come back, I was like of course she is not coming back, I might not even come back, she just shitted a thousands parasites, a mass of worms, I'LL CALL HER. No I actually did not offer due to the fact that I have a really hard time with phones and small talk. What would I ask her? Believe me nothing would have come out honest, but who am I kidding I would have probably broken down in tears of laughter after saying .. So how are you?

The attending said we should all have a test done just in case, to be sure no one else has it, he then continue to explain that we should all take a little scotch tape and tape our asses and check for eggs in the microscope. The class ended right then and there when we all started laughing our asses off ( no pun intended ) while our subconscious started to fail us and the scratching started to attack our entire souls. We started to look at each other like
Homer and Mr. Burns while trapped in that cabin buried in snow after an avalanche. Eventually we all became a part and walked away from each other. I do believe the building ran out of soap.

BEST MOMENT OF THE DAY: This friend yelling to the entire room: 'I'M ITCHING' or when he said, 'I'll call her to tell her to come back and to ask her to please bring the ball of worms with her for us to study them', he then said he would have kept them, his reasoning: He could get an A.

Seriously it's wrong to even laugh about someone else's pain but to blog about it. I'm just seeing myself in front of God explaining why I did it.

But God there were worms........nevermind.

Hell on Earth

2005-09-07T13:31:00.000-07:00

Hell on Earth

Please go to this link OPRAH and watch the 'hell on earth' video.

I know it's easy to talk and try to change what happened once it has actually happened , but someone really messed up here, all those people should had been evacuated 2 days before Katrina actually hit the coast.

I heard President Clinton say that when he left office there was an embryo project to take care of the levees. I know it's way too soon to be judging when there's so many people still in so much pain, but I really think that someone ( ahem Bush ) was more interested in stealing oil from other countries than actually protecting the one he had.

We can't prevent natural disasters from happening but we surely can save as many life's as possible and I truly believe that someone really messed up by putting the file BUILD NEW LEVEES under the one title STEAL SADDAMS OIL.

IN HELL

2005-09-03T13:54:00.000-07:00

IN HELL

So here I am thinking of ways to do the best out of this so called reality I'm in. Jesse was bitten this morning by a dog and has severe abdominal bleeding. I have like a million responsibilities and even more moral ones. My friend is dying in a hospital and I can't find a way to fight and make all this hell go away I don't want to feel what I'm feeling. I feel I'm not ready to let you go girl. I'm watching the aftermath of Katrina and I can't believe how Bush or those anchors have a smile on their face. All I do is cry. I cry and cry cuz I don't want to live what I'm living. I can relate to those who are feeling the same right now. I feel so helpless, weak and powerless.

I can't find a way to not answer questions without sounding silent or mean or angry with people who have nothing to do with my pain. I hear laughs and can't hold my tears. I know I'm not the only who feels bad, but I can't find a nice way to answer questions, I can't deal with the tones of voice people have when they are trying to care but they don't, I can't deal with the stupid questions people ask. I can't understand how there's joy around me while I'm in hell. So here I'm writing cuz it's the only way I have to get out of my system what I'm really feeling. I also want to thank B for being with me while I'm in hell.

To Jess;

Today I didn't go to say hi to you, and I'm sorry about that. I heard someone screaming my name and I just knew.

I ran to you and found you hiding and bleeding, you were out your own body screaming for help and biting anyone who got near you. Somehow I opened a way to you, your sweet voice appeared in one scream and I hold on to you. I drove all around town to find help, you looked out of the window and the sun was hitting your green eyes, you never looked so sad, you reached out to me wanting me to talk to you and touch you with our special hug, but you looked so tired. Somehow you started to relax even when you were feeling knifes within you. I tried to touch you softly but my hands were shaking, I'm sorry I was a mess when you needed me the most.

The help I got you was horrible, the opinion I have about the health system seemed to keep bringing me down as I couldn't stop shaking my hands and thinking of ways to just make your pain go away. They cut you, they made you bleed, they used the wrong tools and I just had to stare and hold you. The help I got for you hurt you even more, the help I got for you only cared about my pocket and not my hearts love. While they were helping you I never took my eyes away from yours. I saw you go to sleep when they used drugs to calm down your pain.

I felt time stop, I couldn't believe how could this happen I was just holding you some moments ago and now I had to leave you without knowing what was happing to you or even if you knew how much I love you and need you.

They said they would call, and I'm still waiting. I've said it before this is the reason I hate phones. I'm so afraid of that call. But I'm here waiting and wishing you well girl.

I'm just writing and trying to think of you as much as I can, I need you with me, and I want you to fight for your life, be strong girl. I also want you to know that if you have to go, know that you can go.

I'm letting you go
I just want you to know that
I love you
I love you very much.

Both pictures were taken yesterday.

Such a sad week

2005-09-02T10:36:00.000-07:00

SUCH A SAD WEEK

1) US - Hurricane Katrina
2) Iraq - 1,000 killed in a stampede
3) Uruguay

I'm so sorry for all of the devestation and loss of life, I don't know what to say so I'm just going to add a link to the red cross.

Help if you can:

SOME IMPORTANT LINKS:

HELP CENTER
IM-OK
Katrina
CraigsList
NOKR

READING:

Atrios
DailyKos
Blurbomat

RAIN

2005-08-23T15:12:00.000-07:00

IT'S RAINING

The temp went from 20C to 9C, it hasn't stopped raining since yesterday, not even for 5 minutes. The streets are rivers and no matter how much you cover yourself when you are out you'll get wet from toe to head.

Somehow I managed to find some beautiful flowers under the rain... you don't even want to know what happened to my umbrella while I did that...and the comments I heard... ' WHAT'S THAT NUT DOING UNDER THE RAIN WITH A CAMERA AND A FLASH COMING OUT OF IT?' but who cares nothing was gonna stop me! once the light bulb in my head goes on there's really nothing I can do to fight rebellion, so I just answered...
'CAN'T YOU SEE THAT'S A SNAKE HIDING FROM THE RAIN ON TOP OF THAT TREE, I MUST TAKE A PICTURE'

Believe me the asshole is still running.

Street art

2005-08-19T15:24:00.000-07:00

STREET ART

It reads: "DON'T LET BUSH STEP ON ARGENTINE".

He is schedule to come here in November, yuck...

Guilty

2005-08-15T11:14:00.000-07:00

Feeling Guilty

For taking a picture and doing nothing about it.

A HOT DAY IN WINTER

2005-08-03T12:31:00.000-07:00

A HOT DAY IN WINTER

25C today!!!!!!! Unbelievable...So much for global warming being a problem of the future...
Wanna see some consequence's?

She went crazy...I don't know if she is weird or just a really cool cat...

But she is still being so cute and all...

Breast Cancer Discovered

2005-07-30T08:23:00.000-07:00

Genes Linked to Spread of Breast Cancer Discovered

Researchers have identified a set of genes that seems to predict if breast cancer will spread to the lungs and how serious the disease will be.

The finding could eventually help doctors to predict whose disease will become aggressive and spread, and potentially help them to better target treatments. The lungs and the bones are frequent sites for cancer that spreads from the breast. And cancer that spreads from the breast to organs such as the lungs accounts for the majority of breast cancer-related deaths, research has shown.

"We are the first to identify a clinically relevant set of genes that can predict metastases [spread] of breast cancer to the lungs," said study co-author Gaorav Gupta, a graduate student and researcher at Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center in New York City.

The researchers began with a set of cancer cell lines from 82 human breast cancer tumors. "We used a mouse model to mimic metastases," Gupta said. "We take these cells and inject them into a special type of mouse that allows you to inject human cells into them. We allowed lung metastases to form. We took out the lung metastases and took the cells and asked, 'What is special about these cells that will allow them to create the metastases?' "

To answer the question, the researchers used a "microarray" technique that allowed them to look at 22,000 genes all at once. Then they identified the genes that created the cancer spread to the lungs, and then put the genes back into the original cells to verify they were responsible.

Then they took another look at the human tumors. "We asked, of these 82 tumors, which ones expressed our genes [identified as those responsible for the spread]. We found a subgroup that expressed the genes and these patients were much more likely to develop lung metastasis."

Next, said Gupta, the research team hopes to repeat the findings in a larger group of patients, "to be certain this isn't just something unique about the cohort we selected."

If patients with these genes can be identified, the next avenue of research would be to figure out if there are specific drugs that could prevent the lung tumors from forming. Certain "inhibitor" drugs have already been shown to suppress the genes identified in the new study, Gupta said.

William C. Phelps, scientific program director of the research department for the American Cancer Society, praised the new study, saying, "Being able to identify a patient with a higher probability of developing metastasis would be of tremendous importance in terms of managing these patients."

The severity and course of cancer, even the same type, can be very different from patient to patient, Phelps said. "One of the decisions to struggle with is what [treatment] to give to which patients," he said. "Obviously, if you know cells in a particular tumor will be more likely to spread to the lung or bone, you would treat these patients more aggressively."

The identification of the gene pattern is a first step, he said. "If we can identify those genes, the next step may be to target the genes for therapy to prevent the spread of the tumors."

By Kathleen Doheny
HealthDay Reporter
Health Central

WE CAN FIGHT CANCER FROM YAHOO:

If someone is diagnosed with cancer and the tumor is found to have the genes, doctors may be able to provide drugs preventively, or at least have them ready for whenever the metastasis is detected.

The lungs, with the bones, liver and brain, are the main organs to which breast cancer spreads. For each organ the cancer invades it needs a specific set of genes.

MORE INFO:

cancer.org
national breast cancer.org

Even though we are still far away from the finish line this are great news, really GREAT NEWS.

MALE CATS

2005-07-27T13:24:00.000-07:00

MALE CATS ARE EVIL

So I went to pick up my cat from the roof and she had some sort of eucalyptus perfume on. There are no eucalyptus trees near my place so it suddenly hit me. Some one had peed on my cat. I never thought that I would ever write that but here I am. Some male cat from around the neighbourhood peed on my baby cat. Why does he need to do this? Its not like she is in heat or anything. Why do males need to mark their things? And why do they need to use lets say eucalyptus perfume?? My theory is that they do this just to complicate our lifes a little more and I do believe she told him into that.

She had her first bath today. Believe me it was H E L L .

FRIENDS

2005-07-22T19:35:00.000-07:00

BACK TO BEING FRIENDS

THIS WAS ON DAY 1:

She came home without blood on her sutures but not even the mask stopped her from ripping every single nylon cable out of her. You can go vomit now.

The first day was horrible but then morning came and she started walking, eating, drinking and sh***** normally. She wanted to do what she did before surgery and by the third day post surgery she was climbing like the day she came home for the first time.

She is now back to normal as you can see here.

And I can say I love her more than ever.

LISTENING TO: Portishead - Roads

HELL

2005-07-19T18:51:00.000-07:00

A HAIRCUT FROM HELL

HELL

I FEEL SO TIRED AND SICK. PLUS WINTER VACATIONS WHICH MEANS THAT EVERY PLACE IN THE CITY SMELLS LIKE POPCORN, KIDS EVERYWHERE, YOU CAN'T WALK TWO STEPS WITHOUT KICKING ONE KID HOLDING A BALLOON WITH A SMILE ON THEIR FACE.

AND THE NOISE THIS KIDS MAKE, YOU WOULD NEVER FIND A SOPRANO THAT HITS AS MANY HIGH NOTES AS THEY DO, THIS KIDS CAN SCREAM TILL THEY MAKE ADULTS DO WHAT THEY SAY. CARRY ME! CARRY ME! PLEASE MOM I DON'T WANT TO WALK. THEY ARE MONKIES, REALLY LOUD MONKIES.

AND THEY ARE ALWAYS SO DIRTY. PARENTS SHOULD NOT BUY SODAS TO KIDS WHILE THEY ARE OUT, NOTHING GOOD CAN COME OUT OF IT.

TODAY I WAS IN THE SUBWAY AND THIS KID STARTED HITTING ME WITH A CELLPHONE. I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING TO HIS MOTHER CUZ LET'S FACE IT, SHE IS IN HELL ALREADY.

AND IF I HEAR THE NAME OF 'HARRY POTTER' ONE MORE TIME I THINK I MIGHT LOOSE IT.

NOTE TO SELF: GET AN HYSTERECTOMY AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

LISTENING TO: KT TUNSTALL - OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD.

WAT

2005-07-16T10:21:00.000-07:00

THE WAR AGAINST TERROR

528 SUICIDE ATTACKS IN IRAQ SINCE ILLEGAL INVASION.

25869 CIVILIANS REPORTED KILLED BY MILITARY INTERVENTION IN IRAQ.

AMERICAN DEATHS SINCE WAR BEGAN (3/19/03): 1760

AMERICAN WOUNDED

OFFICIAL NUMBER :13190
ESTIMATED: 15000 - 38000

OTHER COALITION TROOPS: 192

US MILITARY DEATHS - AFGHANISTAN: 213

AMERICAN CIVILIAN CASUALTIES: 252

More than 3,000 people died in the September 11 attacks in New York, Washington and Pennsylvania.

The 11 March 2004 Madrid train bombings killed 191 people and wounded 1,460.

July bomb attacks on London, which killed at least 55 people and injured 700.

MY THOUGHTS SO FAR:

I GUESS WE ALL HAVE LEARNED THAT STEALING A COUNTRY FULL OF OIL IS NOT THE ANSWER FOR TERRORISM. AND I'D LIKE TO BELIEVE WE ALL KINDA KNEW THAT EXCEPT FOR BUSH, BLAIR AND A FEW OTHER $$$ LOVERS.

I THINK THE WORLD IS A BETTER PLACE WITHOUT SADDAM HUSSEIN IN POWER.

BUT HE DIDN'T HAVE ANY WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION.

I HOPE YOU CAN SEE THE IRONY ON THAT.

THE WORLD WILL NEVER FORGET USA WAS THE FIRST COUNTRY WHO USED ONE, HIPOCRITES.

DON'T GET ME WRONG I'M GLAD HE DIDN'T HAVE ANY WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION

BUT AS FAR AS I CAN TELL I DON'T KNOW IF YOU HAVE ONE OR NOT.

SO WHAT'S STOPPING THE WORLD FROM JUMPING INTO FALSE CONCLUSIONS AND FREEING THE STATES FROM BUSH. I GUESS IT'S COMMON SENSE AND THE FACT THAT WE COULD NOT GET AWAY WITH IT.

I TRULY BELIEVE WE COULD HAVE HANDLED IRAQ WITH A LITTLE MORE CLASS.

WE COULD HAVE TAKEN HUSSEIN TO TRIAL, THE WHOLE WORLD UNITED , AND JUDGE HIM FOR THE CRIMES HE COMMITTED.

WE COULD HAVE HELPED THE PEOPLE OF IRAQ WITHOUT KILLING THEIR FAMILIES.

THEY COULD HAVE BUILT THEIR COUNTRY BY HANDLING THEIR OWN OIL.

WE COULD HAVE FOCUSED ON AL QAEDA A LITTLE MORE.

WE ARE GOING TO STOP TERRORISTS WHEN WE STOP ACTING LIKE THEM.

I HATE KILLERS NO MATTER WHAT NATION THEY BELONG TO.

I HATE GUNS AND ANY KIND OF WEAPON.

I HATE THE FACT THAT YOU MAKE ME LIVE IN A HORRIBLE WORLD.

I HATE THE FACT THAT I FEEL HATE.

$$$$$$$ AND DEATHS ARE NOT YOUR ANSWER BUSH.

$$$$$$$ AND DEATHS ARE NOT YOUR ANSWER BIN LADEN.

JUST IN: Suicide Blast at Iraq Gas Station Kills 98 and injures 152.

UPDATE SUNDAY 7/17 BAGHDAD, Iraq: Suicide bombers killed 22 people in the Baghdad area.

SO

2005-07-12T18:45:00.000-07:00

SO

APPARENTLY SHE LOST HER OVARIES AND HER MIND.

BUT SHE IS FINE AND HAPPY AGAIN.

Surgery

2005-07-08T07:58:00.000-07:00

SHE WAS SO HAPPY BEFORE HER HYSTERECTOMY

EVERYTHING WENT WELL, NOW SHE IS IN A LOT OF PAIN BECAUSE THE EFFECT OF THE DRUGS IS GONE, SO SHE IS CRYING. SHE NEVER CRIED BEFORE.

IT'S HEART BREAKING TO SEE HER LIKE THIS.

TAKE ACTION

2005-07-06T12:04:00.000-07:00

TAKE ACTION

I've just put by name behind a global call for
the leaders of the world's richest nations -
the G8 - to take action to end poverty. They
have the power to do it and only need the will,
and by joining this call you can also help
convince them.

Simply add your details at:

TAKE ACTION

It takes less than a minute.

Nelson Mandela said early this year that

'Sometimes it falls upon a generation to
be great. You can be that great generation.
Let your greatness blossom. Of course the
task will not be easy. But not to do this
would be a crime against humanity, against
which I ask all humanity now to rise up.'

Act now:

TAKE ACTION

MR. HARRIS

2005-07-05T15:00:00.000-07:00

JESSE HARRIS

Copyright JH.

JESSE HAS SOME GREAT NEW SONGS UP.

ALERT

2005-07-01T12:18:00.000-07:00

JUST SO YOU KNOW

LIVE 8 LIVE

SOME NEWS:

1) I'm taking comments off for good.
2) I'm on Depakote.
3) I might go away for a while.

LISTENING TO:

Annie Lennox - The saddest song I've got.

BRAZIL

2005-06-24T18:10:00.000-07:00

BRAZIL 5 YEARS AGO

IF I ONLY KNEW THEN WHAT I KNOW NOW.

Hello Winter

2005-06-21T06:45:00.000-07:00

HELLO WINTER

HIDING

2005-06-19T11:23:00.000-07:00

HIDING

Sharing spam

2005-06-19T10:59:00.000-07:00

Sharing Spam

Dear Friend,

Greetings to you my dear friend, this proposal will come to you
as a suprise. This is because we have not met before.
I am sending you this email regarding the huge fund
transfer opportunity that will be of mutual benefit to the two of us.

I know that a transaction of this magnitude will make any one
apprehensive and worried,but I am assuring you that everything
documents that will bring about the success of this transation
would be provided.

However, I am Barrister Phillip Andrews,the personal attorney to the
late Mr and Mrs Lenor.R. Burson Citizens of the United states.

My Client and his wife died in an air crash on the 31st October
1999 in an Egyptian airline 990 with other passengers like Egyptians,
Canadians,Syrians, Sudanese and Chilean on board.You can confirm
his death from the website below which was published by
BBC WORLD NEWS.WEBSITE./americas/502503.stm>

Unfortunately they all lost their lives Since then I have made
several enquiries to several Embassies to locate any of my clients
extended relatives, this has also proved unsuccessful.

After these several unsuccessful attempts, I decided to trace his
relatives over the Internet to locate any member of his family but
of no avail, hence I contacted you.

I contacted you to assist in repartrating the money and property
left behind by my client and his wife since I have no place to locate
any of his relatives.
I can easily convince his bank in the with my legal practice that
you are the only surviving relation of my client.Otherwise the
Estate he left behind will be confiscated or declared unserviceable
by the bank where this huge deposits were lodged.

Particularly, My late client had an account with one of the banks
Europe. valued at about US$9.3Million (Nine Million Three
Hundred Thousand United States Dollars) which I witness the
documentations before he left for the states on 24 Sep 1999.

Conseqently,The bank issued me a notice to provide the next of
kin to my client since I have been unsuccesfull in locating the
relatives.

I seek your consent to present you as the next of kin of the
deceased so that the proceeds of this account valued at
US$9.3Million (Nine Million Three Hundred Thousand United
States Dollars) will be paid into your account and then you and
I can share the money. 55% to me and 40% to you, while 5%
should be for expenses,tax as your government may require.

I have all necessary legal documents that can be used to back up
any claim we may make. All I require is your honest cooperation to
enable us see this deal through. I guarantee that this will be executed
under a legitimate arrangement that will protect you from any breach
of the law.

Reply immediately, mail me on my altanative mail box
:phillipandrews@box.az

Yours Faithfully,

Barrister Phillip Andrews

N.B. Please indicate your telephone and fax numbers for
easy communication in this mutual transaction.

INVISIBLE

2005-06-17T17:28:00.000-07:00

FEELING INVISIBLE

SKY

2005-06-09T15:15:00.000-07:00

SKY

Reading: Meskelsquare

So

2005-06-08T17:21:00.000-07:00

SO

I got a job today. Crappy salary and horrible hours*, let's just say that it sucks to be an unpaid med student. Now I'll have to add to my schedule this job.

* 17pm till 24pm on weekdays + saturdays :/

plus school, papers, finals, hours at the hospital, taking care of some personal issues, and add this site to the mix, oh yeah.

AUSTRALIA HERE I COME!

I will never change

2005-06-07T16:37:00.000-07:00

I WILL NEVER CHANGE

So I applied for a job yesterday.

This guy calls me today asking me when was I available for an interview.

I said anytime!

He puts me on hold comes back and says:

'what about tomorrow at 9am, does that sound good?'

No. That's actually not good for me, impossible.

He says he'll try to talk to me on Thursday.

I hang up and waved that job goodbye.

OINK

Sunset Rest

2005-06-05T19:37:00.000-07:00

Sunset Rest

Reading

2005-06-04T08:47:00.000-07:00

READING

POST SECRET

RAINY

2005-06-03T13:13:00.000-07:00

RAINY

It's been raining all week, I hate the rain because the sky turns white and I miss seeing the different tones of blue change with time, but what I miss the most are the stars during the night, I miss how they make me dream everytime I look at them.

I like to dream about moving to HAWAII. I'd wake up and drive a very old jeep listening to some old music, I'd go to a lonely beach where only the locals could go, and I'd surf for hours and hours and then rest over my board and wait for the night to come, and I'd stare at the stars thinking of all the what if 's.

But right now I'm so bored, to the point were I'm blogging about the weather! Yesterday we had 25C after a month of 10C, global warming working all around, but it's our own fault we choose to live in a dumpster.

Nancy Grace

2005-05-31T14:51:00.000-07:00

Nancy Grace

I just love her, I think she is the only one who doesn't mind answering my crapy questions. She just made my day.

Roland Garros

2005-05-31T13:10:00.000-07:00

Roland Garros

I don't have anything against Mary Pierce but it was really painful to see Lindsay Davenport lose, she was the only reason I was still watching the games. But now it's the proper time to wave Roland Garros goodbye. For my own good I'm not watching anymore, I think I would collapse if I see Nadal win again.

3 MONTHS OLD

2005-05-28T12:13:00.000-07:00

3 MONTHS OLD

Girl,

I love that you are my punk rock star!

I love that you like to sleep over the stereo not caring about the music. I guess you have it in your blood.

I love that people think I'm a masochist because of all the scars I have all over my body, your nails I'm not that big of a fan of them girl but you can make me bleed like no other without me feeling angry about it.

I just adore that you still love to climb to my shoulder.

I love that you are in trouble most of the time but it's ok cuz you really make me laugh out loud when I'm really sad.

I like when you run to my room just to sleep over the bed and wait for me to give you a kiss before you can go to your wild dreams.

I love that you love water but as I told you the toilet is not your swimming pool so you can stop jumping there, thanks.

Keep getting old I love watching you grow.

Air

2005-05-26T12:20:00.000-07:00

Walking alone under the moon light.