Wednesday, March 05, 2003
LOVE
I've been thinking and fearing choosing and dreaming
Telling myself why I should try again
I chose and did well until I got bored
I decided I wanted to die
I started planning my own death
I don't know if I'm happy I heard myself
But I have no energy left
Everybody here is so different from everybody else
I've always had company but not the one I dreamed about
Too many possibilities for me to just choose one
I don't know how you do that or
how you make that person want you back?
I had a general idea of how this place would work
There are different personalities that made my mind blow
But I gave up caring a long time ago
Maybe I'll take the one it's left but I don't think so
Love for me it's another word
Everybody walks staring at the floor
Too many people hurting still after a life time on the ground
Everything sucks and they keep on asking me questions
They twist the knife much deeper onto my skin
Everybody is hurting and crying and they see me and they ask me about my life
Irony of life I'm no social 'cuz I never had privacy
I'm aching for some time alone
And everybody ask what grade I got
Well I find it rude
Go ask people like you
Why? Why you take it on me?
I never asked you anything
I never cared about you
I never liked you
I stand on the platform with my legs shaking once in a while
I don't know how you can smile
Do you see what's going on around us?
Then how come you are smelling everybody's asses.
Copyright 2003 Ana Toniolli
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