Monday, March 08, 2004
CLOSED
I don't answer to your phone calls
because I don't want to
I don't want my room to be a hall
between doors that are left open
I just want privacy for once
I didn't say you couldn't come in
but just pass without asking for it
after such intrusion
you ask what I'm doing
And that shows how you don't know me
if you did
you will not come in
or maybe you would ask for it
I wasted time looking up
thinking about the ring you left
I knew I couldn't fall again
with unspoken words I closed
my mouth and the door
you didn't care about anything
I'm going insane here
I think there's worst pain in the world
But mine
Mine has to count right
cuss it's killing my soul
You can have the world
and still feel misery
But you can't have the world
who would want the world
I don't want things I did not ask for
I don't want frontal signs I did not write
And the truth is that
there's more misery than tears
Seeing me crying feeds my guilt
I'm my worst enemy even when I know that
I don't want happiness
I just don't want to feel this pain inside
I just don't want to cry
for something I didn't choose
The afternoon is cold
and I'm hearing assumptions
I'm transpirating fear
And a headache that fogs my view
And truly I know I'll remember
what I shouted
and I'll forget what they did
I know that they don't know
they don't know me
I just I don't want to hear them
And the background music
isn't covering their conversation
And I have no intention of being nice tonight
I have no doses for good
And I don't care that's not an excuse
I attacked cuss I'm sick
I feel guilt for something I didn't do
And I didn't run to hunt you
You just step on my tramp
A tramp I did not put there.
Copyright 2003 Ana Toniolli
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