ENJOYING: Afternoon's baseball games.

LISTENING TO: Mean To Me - TONIC .


Tomorrow I'll have a long day at the hospital I can just feel it, the worst part about being there it's that I'll be surrounded by doctors. I hate doctors didn't I mention that before? It's not that I hate them, I just think they preach to much about things they know to little about. They are usually late and when they arrive they are 3 hours talking to each other about how pretty they are or how much money they earn, what car they drive, or which one shines more, when reality shows that sick probably old people are waiting standing in the hall while they are talking about how many interns they had screwed behind their wife's back. (I feel I'm in trouble already!)

I have learned nothing from these jerks, my bad one thing I learned, HOW NOT TO BE LIKE THEM.
I remember one incident from last year, one day I was so nervous about a case with this sweet old lady who had her leg taken out and was in tears because of the pain, her husband was so worried about her and kept asking all this questions about what was going to happen to her other leg, and the asshole of the doctor that was supposed to be watching my every move advised me to talk to her like I was selling something, like I was selling HOPE, and he carried on talking making me a part of his bubble of dreams, saying

You know when you go to a store and the girl in the shop offers you a t-shirt, some jeans and then she offers you a thong! you need to offer her a thong.'

Of course I gave him a look that made both of his balls dry out and fall to the floor for me to kick them as hard as I could. But this is the part of doctors people don't usually see when they visit their sweet and loving doctor. 95% of them believe me are idiots.

My plan for tomorrow: I'LL JUST IGNORE THEM if they really get to me I will just leave proud of not being like them. And it's not like I believe I'm an angel cuz I'm not but I would never speak to people like they do, I will admit if I'm wrong and I can say without the fear of being taken out of a false throne that IM NOT A GENIUS, cuz we are not there to prove who's who by using a last name, or to compare bank accounts we are there to help, JUST TO HELP.

Chances are that the jerk will be there tomorrow and he will come say hi like we are buddies pretending we are the happy med students who are much better than everyone else, and I will have to walk away feeling awkward again after telling him to go fuck a rolling donut.

I wish people could understand that just because you see me alone, doesn't mean that I'm the problem, and I wish they would quit saying I'm a fucking antisocial just to cover their mediocrity.

And I can see the irony in all of this, but I don't hate them, as I said I just don't like them. All I'll need is a really good shrink at the end of med school and lot's of drugs and Stellas, but you know what I'll always come back to the same point, I just don't trust shrinks.