WISHING

I was just thinking that if there's a heaven, I'd really love to see those I love and those I've lost and miss right now.

I would choose not to see those I didn't like or those who have in some way hurt me. I forgive you now. No need to face them again. I'm sorry if I hurt you too. So don't contact me. I really don't want to talk again about the past, I don't want to talk about anything at all.

I know I've made mistakes and it may sound wrong but I don't want anyone to know where I've been or what I've done. So that leads me to this: I don't want to know anything anyone has done wrong and I really don't want to know things they don't want to share.

There are really few people I can say I LOVE in the purest meaning of the word. I love them no matter what. I wish they could understand why I've made so many mistakes but I don't even know the answer to that question, so I really wish they would choose not to know my errors.

I so wish that I could see all my pets.

I wish I could just say I'm sorry to those I've hurt- Cuz I'm sorry now, and I'm paying the price with this guilt that doesn't let me breath.

And last, if there's a heaven I wish I would never be born again.